lively words

its me.

Saturday 28 January 2012

Tuesday 24 January 2012

Sup daging yang direbus, disangkanya tapai yang diperam.

pergi kerja hari ni, (actually since yesterday) cerita pasal ak dah merebak.
every blame on me.
yg ak dengar ceritanya tak sama dengan apa yg ak alami.
the truth. ak tak kata depa salah, tp ak letak salah atas aku. tapi stori tu, bestlagi gerak2 khas

semalamterubatskitla
tgh CS ngan DrMAHAYU (seriusly ak kagum dengan de..fora lot of reasons)
" ala, mslh nya hang ni tak pandai cakap balik. tu ja. hat depa tu dok kipas2. ala hang pejam mata sj, wat pekak. kena extend tagging gaji jalan jugak kan??? "

i dont know la,manusia takkan wat salah berulang kali. ni awal2 dah cop mohor kat atas dahi aku, dah la ak hitam manis, cop nya warna putih plak. terang2.

some of d new MOs sgt2 la masam muka pagi2 lagi. bangsa sendiri plak tu. ngan bangsa lain bukan main lentok lagi. hadoila.

oh bid,no need to xplain to others.
u PROVE datthey rWRONG.
PROVE it!
justwatkeja, learn by heart, jgn pi gosip2 katkaunter2.

POSITIF BIDAYAH !

Friday 20 January 2012

jangan marah dengan TuhanMu

yesterday, received call from my mentor. as i met her,heard my stories of d eventful call last night, she told dat my name was discussed in d morning meeting. the witnesses stories were unlikely as mine. perceptions. and thats becoz i didnt expressed myself. as usual.
in d end, i got a warning letter, and to re-tag again until they say " u r safe to go oncall"
yeah, @ d end of d conversation,as expectedly, i broke into tears front of my mentor. not becoz i mad @ her. its just me. after she said dat i can go, i swept my tears n went away. ended myself cried half hour in d kakitangan's toilet.
but d end is still d same.

i dont know. i tried harder. end up blaming myself.
on d way home, my mentor called. my specialist want to see me as she taught i blamed her @ d end of conversation as i cried so hard. just told her, a have no anger towards her, and i'll re-tag again this Sunday

end up blaming myself
how should i face them ...with d prasangka they have on me.

rasa sgt marah. pada Tuhan???
ak kembali beristighfar